all you need is…
So big congratulations to my dear little sister who ran off and got married last week! Nothing fancy, they did a little private pseudo-eloping thing, honeymooned for a week, then had a family lunch reception today. Met the new in-laws and my new step-niece, they all seem nice.
This of course leaves me as the last single of the siblings. I just hope my parents aren’t holding their breath or things could get ugly. Because frankly, I’ve just about given up. I had an almost funny train of thought about odds and lightning striking on the very day you win the lottery, but I’ll try and spare the pessimism. I’d really like to be more optimistic, but history speaks for itself.
It’s not even like I really have a right to complain, there have been plenty of opportunities. But after spending the first fourteen or so years of my life watching my parents engage day after day in a miserable, bitter, loveless cold war, I learned too well the lesson, and find myself today completely incapable of sustaining any sort of relationship with another human being that isn’t founded in a great friendship.
And how often do you make truly great, life-changing friendships? So far I can still numerate them on my hands.
With someone to whom you’re also physically attracted? Well I think I’m up to about four on that count.
With someone who also finds you attractive, and isn’t already spoken for or otherwise unavailable?
Sigh.
What might be the worst part is that it always seems to lead to losing the friend, too. And soon enough you’re afraid to make any more of those, either.
So, yeah. Here’s looking forward to the day when my sister and her husband build an apartment over the garage to take in her half-crazy alcoholic brother, his piano, and his cat.
This is very touching.
And for what it is worth I think you are totally hot.
Y’know, it’s not really the end-all be-all. A little over 10 years ago, I met a woman who’d had a perfect life. Married her college sweetheart, created a nice life in a nice mid-size city. They had loads of money and friends. Everything you could want. One day, they were camping with friends and taking turns swinging out on a rope off a cliff and into a small lake. Her husband’s hand got caught in the rope and it swung him back into the side of the cliff. He was crushed to death. In an instant, her life went from perfect to tragic. And she had to completely rebuild.
What I took from that is that you have to be happy with what you’re doing every day and can’t think about what you don’t have. Because even when you get what you want, you might not have it for long.
>And for what it is worth I think you are totally hot.
Thanks :blush:
Of course you might have tried telling me that BEFORE moving to the other side of the continent!! ;)
>What I took from that is that you have to be happy with what you’re
>doing every day and can’t think about what you don’t have. Because
>even when you get what you want, you might not have it for long.
Sage advice of course. It’s the essence of Buddhism, actually. That may be my problem lately as much as anything, I’ve gotten out of the habit of practicing / meditating, and I think I’m losing my grounding.
A new multi-school Dharma Center just opened in 12 South, I think I need to check it out.
Yep, find your ground again. You have to find your happiness inside yourself.